This Could Be Our Month!!!

This could be our month!!!! This could be the month that we finally get to see our sweet baby boy's face and hear his name! Our agency said a referral was possible this month! I get so excited every time another month passes. After school on Friday, I changed our classroom calendar to March and I got giddy! Maybe this month! And if not, we're at least another month closer. We will know some more up to date information this Tuesday on our 3 month update! Today is Sunday, so our agency is closed, but you know that when Monday morning comes my phone will be within arms length all day, every day! Although I won't start getting too jumpy yet... I'll at least wait until I hear our update news. Even still, I'm surprisingly peaceful. :)
P.S. Not sure if I like this plaid blog background. But I'm getting really sleepy and tired of playing around with it. So it will have to do for now! :)

Here's a letter I wrote to our son. I cannot wait to see that little face!

Dear Baby,
Right now, in Ethiopia, it is 5:35am. Maybe you are still sleeping. Maybe you have already greeted the new day with a smile. Right now, we’re getting ready to go to sleep. We can’t wait to know your face and know your name. I can’t wait to hear your Ethiopian name. It gives me goose bumps just thinking about it! It's already March! I can't believe it has been over 5 months since we started our journey to you! The time has gone by relatively quickly so far. This could be our special month! This could be the month forever etched on our hearts and minds! My heart aches for you, longs to be with you. I’m trying so hard to be patient, to rest on the truth that God is in control. I want to know you are safe, that you are healthy. Know baby boy, that even from afar, before we know your face, we have recognized and celebrated your precious life. You are loved; first by God, and second by us. Your life will not go unnoticed as we wait to bring you home. Most days, I feel peace. I feel settled in my heart that all is well and you will be home soon. But other times, I long so badly to hold you and smother your little face with kisses that it physically hurts. Not a day goes by when I don’t think of you. Not a day goes by that when my alarm goes off at 5:30 am that I don’t envision waking to your beautiful face and spending all day with you. I can’t wait to love you and teach you about Jesus, and love you some more, and just enjoy every moment with you. I know you will probably be scared at first…you don’t know us, haven’t seen us before, haven’t heard my heartbeat, haven’t sensed my presence. My hearts aches, even now, for those moments of fear and uncertainty that will be in your heart, now matter how little you are. But we will be there for you, for whatever comes, and however long it comes. We will not leave you. We have waited so long for you. We cannot wait to meet you face to face. Until then, I go to sleep tonight, dreaming of you, and I will wake tomorrow wishing you were right here with us. Soon baby, very soon.


mrs. owl said...

Hey Guys! Your little boy will be so blessed!! Can hardly wait to meet him myself.

Katie & Tim said...

that was such a sweet letter! i can't believe this month may be it! how exciting for you! i can't wait to see your baby's picture either! :)

oh, and about the background, it's funny you said something about it in your post because as soon as i saw it, i thought, "rachael, really?" haha! it just doesn't look like you. :) no offense!! alrighty, have a great day!

Amanda said...

Rachel, that is such a sweet letter...it brought tears to my eyes! Thanks for sharing. I am so excited for you guys and will be rejoicing with you when you get your referral! I am so impressed with your patience and peace through all of this! Blessings!

Mrs. Fraiz said...

Wow, what a beautiful letter! You guys will be such wonderful parents!